So a life update on
Spencer. If you read my last blog (which I hope you did), I talked about my
goal for this year and how I wanted to make everyday worth it, so at the end of
the year I wanted a visual representation of how 2018 went. Well, I have been
very good at filling out my year in pixels and plan on continuing with this
little project of mine. (It's not too late to join!, you can start at anytime
in the year.) I am very proud of the chart I made, I have mine layed out to be
the following:
Great Days : Purple
Good Days: Blue
Bad Days: Green
Terrible Days: Orange
Worst 10 Days: Red
I find a little joy at the end of each day when
I fill it out, and get to see the little teal, purple, and blue boxes grow.
Filling in my boxes day by day, they remind me of all the good, happy,
joyful things that happened on those days. However, this week was different. Up
until this week, all of my days had been good, great, and even two top ten
days! I finally had a bad day, and it was a tough pill to swallow. For a few
days, I couldn't admit to myself that it was a bad day and couldn't bring
myself to fill in the little box with green. I had felt like I had let myself
down; like I had failed my goal of making everyday “worth it.”
Then I was reminded of
some truth by a quote I saw. “Everyday may not be a good day, but there is
something good in everyday.” We all lose sight of our goals at some point, and
by not filling in my bad day in, I had lost sight of the purpose of this yearly
summary. My goal was not trying to have every day be a good or great day, but
it was to make sure I was reminded that I have the choice everyday to make it a
good day. It is the bad days that give us something to compare the good days
to.
My bad day might have been filled with stress,
anxiety, sleep deprivation, preparation for a big exam, and words I cannot take
back. But that day was also filled with working out with my teammate Kylee at
the gym, talking about our days, the things to come in the week, and building
our friendship and trust. It was dinner with friends while laughing about good
times had that weekend. It was peace when I sat down for the first time to enjoy
a breath of fresh air and laughing with my teammate after our weekly team
meeting.
During this busy season of our lives, it is easy
to find all the things that go wrong in one day, but it is important to
remember the good things that happened that day. Trust me when I say they can
be hard to find, but I promise they are there; you only have to look. Next
time you find yourself thinking or telling a friend about all the things that
didn't go right that day, stop and think of all the good that happened too.
Find someone who will hold you accountable to this; someone who will listen
to your bad days, but also tell you to switch your mind set and think of all
the good things.
I now have filled in that little box green, and
it will serve to me as a reminder that it is okay to have bad days, that
everyday might not be a good day, but there truly is something good in
everyday.
Stationed by the Emblem of Washington,
Spencer Flood
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